Inner Light - Integrative Healing

I think out of all of the exercises, this one has touched me most.  The person I chose to see and feel was my grandmother, and while she has passed over 20 years ago, I firmly believe she has been guiding me all of these years (as she did when she was alive).  I was able to become very relaxed, very quickly and really feel my grandmother and her wisdom, kindness and the way in which she spoke.  I found myself able to see the white light and actually envision it coming into me.  This was a palpable experience for me.  Really the first one since beginnng this class.

I've had some difficulty with calming my mind, so I've been practicing every day a lunch.  I'm able to sit in my car for about 30 minutes and practice wiping everything out of my mind.  I turn my radio on very low, ignoring the music or talking.  I was contemplating something important today and although my mind was completely clear and void of thoughts or images, I found a voice which spoke two very simple words to me and gave me my answer.  It was an amazing feeling and experience.  I realized the voice that spoke to me was my own, but it did not come out of my mouth.  Ihave to say, I've been quite relaxed today since then.

Practing meditation has helped me to become very calm in the face of adversity.  I tend to relax and think things through better.  I am less stressed than I was even a few weeks ago.  The obvious is that the less stress I have inside, the healthier I will be.  My heart, my organs, my whole body will benefit from less stress.  I will continue building on my meditation until I am ready to move on to meditations that take me deeper into healing.  Honestly, I wasn't sure I was going to be able to master this, but my "starting small" has paid off.

I believe it would be very difficult to help clients heal without having gone through the process myself.  I don't think I would have much credibility to suggest developing ones mind, body or spirit unless I had done so first.  There's such an unspoken connection between a healer and the one being healed.  The connection can only be made if the healer has the knowledge of actual experience and wisdom of having lived through their own healing.  So much of mind, body and spirit healing comes from establishing trust.  I have begun looking deeper into my own religion for some spiritual healing.  Meditation will be a very large part of my life and will help me to become a more loving person.  My body has already begun to heal because my outlook is different, my mind is beginning to heal as well as my spirit. I've also begun making nutrition and exercise changes into the healing of my body.

~Roz